when I told you I'll wear yellow and
buy you a yellow bear to join the yellow club,
when you looked so happy eating that smelly toufu,
when I overheard you calling your mom
to ask about her and thinking how sweet that was,
when I received your very long text about
celebrating Nick's birthday with Kumar at HRC,
when we stood outside your room and wrote you big notes,
when b and I gave you pocky in secret and
you threatened us with that for potato chips,
when you woke up in the middle of the night and
I made fun of how ugly you look when asleep,
when you asked me that question,
and I took youth for granted and
told you it's not that easy to die?
I'm sorry.
You were such a strong girl.
For all those ugly robots I have drawn you,
and the letters with little words,
I will miss you, Anna.