disregard the fact that second place
is the highest I will ever be.
I probably brought it upon myself.
Maybe this is the only way
to make up for my inadequacies.
To the you, you and you who once told me
that I am worth something,
maybe it's time to stop deceiving yourselves.
Punishing myself is probably my only way out.
This is the time,
when there's a need to take a walk.
Alone.